The way to choose is not to follow the heart

So now, there is the problem with me right now. The firm stand that i am losing on my own rules. It is obviously hard that i have been cruel for myself and the people around, but yet, i strongly believe that this would pay back someday or rather to keep myself clear in this cloudy and foggy society. What i wish is that to firm my stand and to hold my rules tightly. I cannot let my heart overwhelme my personal rules, my future and my way of changing my life for the better. Love is simply not my cup of tea ever since i grown up and learn about the cruel society. Maybe if i am lucky enough, i would find my perfect next life. This time round, no joke, trust me, follow your heart would lead you to a way that will never let you back.